changes in my life

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I was not so happy being lonely living without you
So I prayed so hard for your love in my heart I needed you
Then I looked up in the sky and I'm thinking why oh why,
These are all the many changes in my life

After all the caring and the laughter, no one is like you
I am not a preacher with a sermon, I'm so in love with you
`Cause to live without your love like the sun that shines above
Is the magic of the changes in my life

And I’ll never forget your love
You and I we were meant to be
Sweet as rain falling from the sky
You and I
These are all the many changes in my life

Listen to these words I want to give you on our love so true
Don’t forget I love you and I need you, I’ll always be with you
So just looked up in the sky and you’ll find out why oh why
These are all the many changes in my life

And I’ll never forget your love
You and I we were meant to be
Sweet as rain falling from the sky
You and I
These are all the many changes
These are all the many changes
These are all the many changes in my life

(Instrumental)

And I’ll never forget your love
You and I we were meant to be
Sweet as rain falling from the sky
You and I
These are all the many changes
These are all the many changes
These are all the many changes in my life
These are all the many changes
These are all the many changes
These are all the many changes in my life.

found this very inspiring...

She gave up on love a long time ago, that much I know.

   Before, when she thought she was in love, she would come to me and tell me about the new man in her life. She told me time and time again that this would be the man who would take her away, the man who would do everything to make her happy. I only listened. Her eyes would sparkle with every word, and her cheeks would blush with every positive thought, every chunk of her imagination that now seemed within reach. She would giggle and tell me that she would not forget about me. Then, just weeks later, she would be packing her bags, and she would be off to some exotic destination.

   But then she always came back crying, and she came back with less enthusiasm than what she had whenever she left. This is it, she would tell me. This is the last time. But then she would find someone again who would eventually leave her.

   I've wondered why so many times. There was nothing wrong with her in my opinion - she had a beauty that shined more when you stared at her longer. She had a good, innocent heart, very childlike and yet containing a deep sense of maturity as well. She was charming and could sweep anyone off their feet without exerting much effort. But somehow, she keeps on falling in love with the wrong men.

   They were all the same, the men she fell in love with. They were willing to give her the world, and being a young woman, what else could be more romantic? They bought her everything she asked for, and she pleased them. Yet they would end up leaving her in the end, either because they have already had their fun or because their wives found out about her.

   She would always come back looking much older than she was when she left. But though she may be shedding tears and nursing fears, inside these things only made her stronger. She would go back to the world a rejuvenated person with new hope in her. Then the same thing would happen, and once again, she would close her heart off from the rest of the world.

   The last time she returned, she told me she had given up on love already. She was tired, she said. The last man had done enough damage to her to last for a lifetime. That was what she told me. Indeed he had changed her life drastically. He was a single man who only wanted companionship, and she, being the innocent lady that she is, had mistaken this desire for companionship for love and passion. Indeed the passion led to their pleasure, and he left her with child. When he found out, he told her that he was willing to support her and their child, and he was willing to give anything that she asked for as long as she does not ask him to marry her. He told her he only wanted companionship, and he was not ready to settle down. When she heard this, it served as the last straw for her, and so she came home and told everyone that she was giving up on love.

   Now there was a man who was constantly at her side whenever she would get her heart broken. He would always let her cry on his shoulder and tell her that things would be fine. He even offered to take responsibility for the child that she bore from the last failed relationship. For some reason that I do not know, she would not do as much as consider having this man in her life. I had dared ask her only once, and she just shrugged her shoulders in confusion and bewilderment. Maybe it was because she was still jaded when I asked, but I will never know. Anyway, he was always there, and one day he presented her with the one thing that she had always wanted - a ring.

   "If you're doing that because you feel sorry for me, then just forget it," was what she answered. She let him go thinking he did not deserve her. But he refused to marry because he was waiting for her. Years later she would take him for his husband and live in utter bliss.

   She gave up on love a long time ago. But then love had different plans. Love would not give up on her, and in the end it was worth the long wait.

i never stopped loving u i just stopped showing it....

   alam mo naman napatawad na kita... alam mo rin na mahal na mahal kita.. u accepted my offer and thats friendship.. sana naman matanggap mo un dahil ako tinggap ko ng buo ung ibinigay mo sakin.. kung meron mang pag asa satin... at ung last chance na hiniling mo... ibibigay ko na...

cguro ung pagkakaibigan natin ang sasalo satin ngaun...

   kung trip mo lang na paglaruan ako.. sguro tatanggapin ko na lang din.. marami akong pagkukulng sau at baka ung ang dahilan kung bakit ka nagbago.. salamat sa lahat ng alaala... pilitin man ng isip kong lumaban pero pagod ang na puso ko sa sakit.. hindi ko alam kung ano ang kasalanan ko.. bkt ako pinahihirapan ng ganito.. siguro hindi lang ako dapat magmahal...dati hindi kumpleto ang buhay ko nung wala ka.. at minsan nang nakumpleto un nung naging akin ka...

ngaun malaya kna ...

 baka mas maging masaya ka sa iba.. kahit hindi ko na kaya.. pero kung kailangan ko nang magparaya gagawin ko kahit mahirap... tatanggapin ko khit sobrang sakit... kung kailangang ngumiti sa lungkot.. ngingiti ako maitago ko lang ang sakit.. 'wag mong isiping ipinagpalit kita sa iba.. dahil hinding hindi ko un magagawa.. makakaya natin 2.. at makakaya mo kahit wala ako.. hindi kita iiwan nandito lang ako para sau....

ang pinakamatalik mong kaibigan..

I had no intention of reading your profile once again. The last time I did, it hurt so much it drove me to theorize on the art of letting go. I was confident while typing away my sentiments into an essay that ultimately revealed my eagerness to forget you. I had no other choice. Getting over you became an obsession. But I realized now, five minutes after I unwittingly opened your profile that getting over someone could never be a matter of choice. How I have managed to author that letting go theory is beyond me. We can’t choose to forget someone. Time does that for us.

Obviously, time hasn’t decided for me yet. Hurt, every time I hear something about you and her, isn’t exactly new anymore. I have tried countless times to cover it up in letting go theories, or I-don’t-love-you-anymore songs and yet, reality still bites. The toughest thing about it is that the sting lingers long after the wound has supposedly healed.

I thought a year were enough. A year of no significant communication. Why is it that every time I hear something from you –anything, I get this insane feeling of sadness as if everything else in the universe is useless because I don’t have you? Why is it that my heart could not break away from you when everything else has? Why is it that I feel as if time has no intention of giving me my due? I want to forget you. I NEED to forget you. And I cannot wait forever for that.

I will not make this into another essay about finally letting go. This will not be about me getting over you and putting to rest all feelings I have harbored for the longest time. This will not be about sweet lies, but of bitter truths. I was never over you yet. Plain and simple. The hurt I felt moments ago was nothing new because it never really left me. It’s still there painful as ever.

It’s official then. I will never get over you. Ever.

pinapaikot mo lang ako Nagsasawa na ako. Mabuti pang patayin mo na lang ako” -electric fan

“hindi lahat ng walang salawal ay bastos” -winnie d’ pooh

“Alam mo ba wala akong ibang hinangad kundi ang mapalapit sayo. pero patuloy ang pag-iwas mo” -ipis

“Hala! sige magpakasasa ka! Alam ko namang katawan ko lang ang habol mo.” -hipon

“Ayoko na! pag nagmamahal ako lagi na lang maraming tao ang nagagalit! wala ba akong karapatang magmahal?!?” -gasolina

“Hindi ko hinahangad na ipagmalaki mo na ako’y sau ayoko ko lang naman na sa harap ng maraming tao ganun mo na lang ako itanggi..” -utot

“Sawang sawa na ako palagi nalang akong pinagpapasa- pasahan, pagod na pagod na ako.” -Bola

“you never know what you have till you lose it. and once you lose it, you can never get it back” -snatcher

“Ginawa ko naman lahat para sumaya ka mahirap ba talagang makontento sa isa? bakit palipat-lipat ka? -TV

“hindi lahat ng maasim may vitamin c” -kili kili

Sige, batihin mo ako…. Sigeee…..BATEEEEE E!!!!!!!! -omelette

pilitin mo man na alisin ako sa buhay mo, babalik at babalik ako! -libag

“wag mo na akong bilugin..” -kulangot

Paano tayo makakabuo kung hindi ako papatong sa iyo? -Lego

“hindi lahat ng dugo puedeng idonate” -regla

“Ang tamang paglalagay ng lipstick ay lagpas labi” - Ronald McDonald

“can’t help but fall” - sipon

“hindi lahat ng hinog matamis - nana

“hindi porket checkered ay table cloth! Tandaan nyo yan” - FEU

“wala naman akong gnagawa sa kanya, nidi na nga ako gugamagalaw dito. Ako na yung natapakan siya pa ang galit” - tae

nagulat kami ng maka recieve ng txt from my cousin mean. nasa cam vicente lim xa now nagttrain as a police . criminology ung nagustuhan nya course kc gusto daw nya pumayat medyo may karamihan kc kain nya kaya nakita sa katawan.. almost 3 mos na xa don. ever since d pa xa nagkaka bf. akalain mo she's 21 now wala pa bf... (bibihira yan).. natutuwa ako sa kanya kc minsan lang xa magtxt dahil nga bawal sa kanila cp sa loob.

txt ni mean:         kmzta na keo jan?? k lng m d2 wag keo magwwori saken

ninang:   ayos lang din kami d2. kanino cp gamit mo? baka mahuli ka jan ha

mean:     e2 my sipon punta nman keo d2 dala nyo ko gamot

ninang:   cge kelan ba pwede punta jan   

mean:     sunday pwede

ninang:    xa ge bka mahuli ka pa maparusahan ka pa jan. mag ingat u  lagi

mean:      nay pwede na ho ga aq mag bf? muslim ho pwede na ba?

ninang:    (napapaisip, napapangiti,)

(nagtataka kaming lahat kya inagaw ko na cp tawa q ng tawa nung mabasa ko.. pero sa bandang huli naiinggit ako sa ninang ko.. sana ganon din kami ka open ng nanay ko. sa dami ko ng naging bf wala pa ko naiipakilala sa parents ko pero sana wag din cla magtatampo kc nasabi ko na sa sarili ko na pag ako nagdala ng guy sa bahay xa na talaga... (kelan kya un????)

after 1 min....

ninang:   anak pwede bang d muslim?? iba paniniwala ng mga yan..

napaisip ako... ano kya ung gustong sabihin ni ninang??? dahil  nga sa don sa ibang paniniwala ng mga muslim o ayaw pa lang tlga nyang mag bf si mean??

one month na ko sa new work ko and guess what night shift po ako na miss kong mag pang gabi ha sa dati ko kc trabaho e 4 years na kong pang umaga.. opo nagresign na ko sa dati ko company for 5 years.syempre miss ko na mga tropa ko don gano na nga ba kami katagal d nagkikita kita.. miss ko na ung mga kwentuhan namin na walang kwenta.. ung mga lakad kung saan saan.. mga kulitan.. hay nakakamiss din naman pla kau.. kelan kaya reunion natin???

as of now ok naman sa bago ko company. masaya pa ko sa ginagawa ko (sana d ako magsawa agad hehehe)  kase bukod sa madali ung work ko marami pa cute lalo na ung isang boss ko.. alam ko marami nagpapantasya sa kanya pano ba naman pag nasa canteen napapansin ko sobrang daming nga bblush pag dumating xa hay naku ang dami ko pla kaagaw.. pero ok lang pare pareho naman kaming hanggang tingin nlang...

masaya naman kasama mga new friends ko sabrang gulo nga lang lalo na c baby palibhasa bata pa kaya sobrang isip bata pero ok naman mapapatyagaan na rin.. wish ko lang wag mo to ma open baby hehehe...

Got into a very shameful situation today. The ones where you want the earth to open and eat you alive. Or the ones you wish you have a pack of Mentos in your pocket. The thing is neither of the two happen.

But what the heck! I don't need that. Heads up...walk!

Ako naman kasi...antanga antanga!

I went out of my room this afternoon, never bothering to open the lights. It was a bit dark, the sky was gloomy. I took a pair of sandals and wore them hurriedly because I'm damn late.

On my way, people stole glances on me. OMG! Is my zip open? Makeup ok? Hair ok?  and then I noticed I was wearing different sandal on each of my foot.

WHAT!!! OOOOMMMMGGGG!

I stopped on my tracks, thinking of the next move. Without getting any ideas, I gave up. I decided to let it be. Some things just happen without us expecting it. Buti na lng pareho silang flat. Oh, syempre kung may heel ang isa mapapansin ko right? haha!

So there I was, walking, commuting, smiling, with my black sandals on my left and my brown sandals on my right.

When people asked, I just said, "Pauso ko po."

What'ya lukin' at? Get lost!

Haha!